Intro
Hello. The name's Kayden. I'm making this site to keep up with my transition. Not really sure what to say but I'll try to keep it short and simple. I am an FTM transguy. Pre-op, Pre-T. I just got diagnosed with Crohns Disease and it is horrible. I have to now take 4-6 pills everyday for the rest of my life. So I have to find out if I can even take T. If I cant, Im going to absolutely freak out. But if I can, I plan on starting in the next 2-3 months. I also today just found out that my insurance [Aetna] should cover EVERYTHING!!! Therepy, testosterone, and surgery. Im over the top excited so hopefully it actually works out. I have been slowly telling all my friends Im trans and nobody has a problem and are all supportive. I also told my mom and sister [and my cousin found out] and none of them really care. Mom's just concerned for my health and thinks its her fault I was born in the wrong body. But you cant help that so yeahh. Anywase.. I think thats about it. Hope you enjoy my site and maybe I can be of some help to anyone who needs it. Just hit me up =]
-Kayden 4.13.10
-Kayden 4.13.10
So Close
Me and Cole went to to Atlanta Feminist Clinic today. We met and talked to Jac Camp who was super nice and very helpful with all the questions we had and more. We got our blood work done. Now all we have to do is get the lower exam. We can get it done there or somewhere else and fax them the papers. Im gonna get it done somewhere else so my insurance covers it. And after that, we get our testosterone prescription! Hopefully all the blood work and stuff comes back normal. Ive never been so excited about anything in my life. Hopefully I'll start my t.log in the next month or so. YAY!!
-Kayden 4.28.10
-Kayden 4.28.10
10 Days
My bloodwork and bottom exam results all came back good. We start T June 24!!! Were goin in to get taught how to inject and then theyll give us our prescriptions. Never been happier. And time couldnt move by any slower. Update when I get T. YAY!!!
-Kayden 6.12.10
-Kayden 6.12.10
GRS / Future
Been on T for 6 weeks. Started thinkin about future stuff. I was looking into bottom surgery but theres no way in hell Im gonna pay that much money to get my shit fucked up. Ive yet to see one good looking phallo surgery. Its fucking dumb. I found one guy on xtube that looked good but he was also born intersexed. Im not sure what that means exactly or what all that changes but his looked really good. If anything I would go for the Metoidioplasty with Scrotoplasty. But even if I do that itll be a long time from now. Thats a BIG thing to think about and a lot of money (up to $20k). So untill then Im just gonna save up for top surgery and a prosthetic. But I want one that can be used for packing, peeing, and sex. Just gotta find the right one. On a different note.. I got upset because in the future when Im ready to settle down I will hopefully have all my names changed and everything and I will pass everyday and everything.. but I will never be able to make my own kids. And that upsets me more then anything. Not too sure how to handle it. FML.
-Kayden 8.7.10
http://www.ftmguide.org/grs.html
-Kayden 8.7.10
http://www.ftmguide.org/grs.html
Random Shit
I NEED TOP SURGERY!!! Im giving myself 6 months to bust my ass to come up with the money so hopefully I can get surgery before next summer or at least next year. I'll take out a loan if I have to. I just turned 21 in October. Im looking into getting my name and everything changed by next year as well. I just dont know if, in Georgia, you can legally change your sex without bottom surgery first. Help?! Christmas will be 6 months on T so I think Im about to go ahead and write a letter telling the rest of my family whats going on so they dont ask a bunch of questions. Im also gonna make it VERY clear that they need to call me Kayden and use male pronouns. I started therepy. Tmrw will be my 3rd time and so far I think it might be helping. I got REALLY depressed the passed 2-3 months but the past 2 weeks just about have been pretty awesome. It's nice being happy again.
-Kayden 11.3.10
-Kayden 11.3.10
Coming out to Family (request)
Ok - A lot of guys keep asking me how I came out to my family and such. Its nothing exciting but here it is.. I moved out so I could start T. My mom found out I was looking into it before I left. She wasnt happy. I figured since she already knew and I was pissed/upset enough to just blurt out everything in a facebook message. Ive never been really close with my family, nor talked about things, so writing shit to each other is how we talk usually. I said I was going to take T, where, how, why, when, what.. everything. I included links to helpful sights and youtube videos. My sister knew too. She doesnt say much about it but as far as I know shes just whatever about it. My dad has known for a while, which I just found out, and has never liked it. I started therepy About 4 months into my transition. It has helped a little bit in different ways and I highly recommend it. About 5 months into my transition, I was to the point where I just wanted to be me and wasnt worried about what anyone else thought. I was also, and still am, tired of getting called my original name and female pronouns. So I wrote a message to extended family, aunts, cousins..etc, and sent it on facebook. I got 3 supportive responses and nobody else wrote back out of about 8+ people. The only way I know how most of my family feels is when I hear it from a cousin or something. However, nobody is treating me any different. And for christmas everyone got me the same shit they got my only guy cousin. I also have had it out with my dad who refuses to support it, even though he says he'll always love me (wompwomp). He wrote me a letter pretty much saying God made me as a girl and thats how I should stay. I wrote him back explaining and bringing in science, DNA, difference in sex & gender..etc. Everything. He never responded (because I owned him) and he has managed to stay a complete asshole and make sure he corrects anything saying him, he, his, or Kayden. But karma is a bigger bitch and he's gonna be the dumb one trying to tell people Im his daughter when have a giant beard and no boobs. And that leaves me where I am today - Jan.2011 - little of 6 months on T and loving it more and more everyday. Now if only my face would clear up. F.
-Kayden 1.14.11
-Kayden 1.14.11
Quick Overdue Update
Not much has been goin on. Same 'ol shit. Family still not very accepting, if at all. Me and Ashland are back together, hopefully for good this time. I havnt been able to go to therepy for a few months but Ive been pretty ok I guess. As soon as I move out, I will be much better off. I am trying to get into Athens Tech for EMT. Fingers crossed. My grandpa passed away from lung cancer about a month ago. Its still pretty hard. Other then problems here and there, everything is goin alright. Just tryin to get by. Update later.
-Kayden 6.1.11
-Kayden 6.1.11
Another quick update..
I had a job at Macys but was only seasonal so im back to no job and no money. Ashland moved back in with me and things are goin good between us. My family is still slowly coming around. Christmas my dad called me kayden once and most of my family wrote it on all my presents. Best Christmas ever. I am trying to raise money for surgery and to get my name changed. Stressin out like nobodies business.
-kayden 1.11.12
-kayden 1.11.12
Post-Op Update
Had top surgery finally. I'm 12 days post-op and doin great. Couldnt be happier with my results. I get health insurance again this month, I think, so I will be able to start therepy again. I was prescribed Xanax for surgery and it was insane how much it helped my anxiety & panic attacks. ive maybe only taken 4 or so, because I dont wanna get dependent on them every time I'm having an off day. Im hopin to get my name change done this coming week. Then I can apply for a credit card and start gettin credit and savin up money to move out. Im ready to start my life with my lady.
-kayden 4.1.12
-kayden 4.1.12
Exciting news!
I'M GONNA BE AN UNCLE!!! It was a surprise to all but we will make the best out of it and help and support my little sister and her boyfriend. My crohns has been makin me sick a lot again over the past week or two. Trying to get that under control. It effects everything and Im tired of feeling like shit 24/7 and stayin doped up on meds. But anywase. I hope everything works out for the best. Wish me lots of luck!
-Kayden 6.19.12
-Kayden 6.19.12
Life Update
I have had my name and gender officially and legally changed. I am now seen, legally, as I should be. And even more exciting, I am now able to get married to my amazing woman. I am just getting back into work from being out a few months due to my Crohns Disease. I am dealing with pretty bad dysphoria, mainly concerning my bottom half and body image. I am more than ready to start my T back and hopefully get myself back into shape. I am now an uncle of a healthy and beautiful 3 month old niece, Presley Reid. And last but not least, me and my lady are starting to save up more money to hopefully get our own place before winter. If not, I will officially go crazy. Wish us the best!
-Kayden 5.9.13
-Kayden 5.9.13
Gettin' By
I have just been working and trying to save money. After having my name and gender changed on all my documents, I was working on my last, and hardest one: birth certificate. It is a PAIN IN THE ASS. I was iffy on changing it before I had a hysto, just in case they didnt cover it under insurance as Male. And I really only wanted it changed right now to be able to get married. However I found out some counties in my state dont need to see your birth certificate, just license and such. So I have put that on hold for now. Not in a rush to change untill I have the hysto, and I have no idea when that might be.
-Kayden 1.11.13
-Kayden 1.11.13